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I'm Tired

I had the urge to write today. Never wrote anything so what the heck. I haven't been caring if I live or die lately so maybe it's important for me.

 

I'm Tired

I want to go home

Back where laughter & happiness roam

Smiling faces all filled with cheer

Every single day of the year

Everyone enjoying the wonder of every season

It's Heaven on Earth after all, there should really be no reason

Then why all the fighting, over money, power, skin

Do as you're told, live in fear, you will never win

I'm tired of being tired, always living my life in fear

I see the Path ahead, but my way just isn't clear

I look back behind me seeing cowardice, guilt and shame

It keeps dragging me down, I can't get up, do you all feel the same?

Am I worthy to move forward, can I change the things I feel?

Yes, I'm tired of the game already, I know the home I long for is real.

Hey Liz, I’m sorry to hear it.

Not that I know you, and I don’t think we’we ever written to each other, but if you’d like a friendly chitchat about whatever through zoom or  some other videochat, I’d be up for it.

 

No worries if you don’t feel like it.

Thanks Red...this is kind of status quo for me.  I did take it as a good sign that I did something "creative" and wrote a poem...if it can even be called that.   I've never done video chat....the thought makes me uncomfortable because of low self esteem.  But I think I can direct message you on here, if that's ok and if I need to?

Liz

"Spirit loves a good poem"

is what Mike wrote in one of the books. And indeed, as it seems to me, what you wrote came straight from your heart, from your own higher self. I think that's a good sign, despite the struggles mentioned in the poem.

It seems to me that whenever someone is in trouble, spirit tries to convey messages, or at least create an urge to release some of the stress via different means, like writing, for instance. I remember a time when I was frantically writing poems, almost on a daily basis. It helped me. Furthermore, in some of them, there were some deeper messages embedded, which would have been great for me to heed. I'd say, let it flow. If the urge is there, allow it. It will do you good. And I don't mean merely writing poems. It is possible that many other urges are there which spirit asks to heed. For instance: being tired means one thing. One needs rest. Being lonely means one thing: One needs a person who one can trust and share life with. etc. So, actively working towards gratification of these urges/needs, is probably a good way to move forward.

Reality sure is dark, especially if we look at the big picture. And especially if we look at the smaller picture through the lens of the bigger picture. But I'm convinced that you already know enough about the big picture. Perhaps it would be good to let that off the hook for a while, and focus on seriously immediate things. Like need/urge gratification. Joining/creating a good environment. Getting more sleep. Getting more rest. Getting less stress. More nature, more self-time, more about fun and joy and less about survival. I am 100%ly aware that these things also strongly depend on the society one lives in, but it's fine if they are not 100%ly met to certain degrees. It's still better than before probably.

PS: you inspired me a lot with your last post several weeks ago. My own path got a lot clearer after reading your posts. I'm not sure whether this would rather aggravate you or the opposite, but I thought I'd let you know.

Yours, Aim

Quote from Liz on July 28, 2020, 1:03 pm

Thanks Red...this is kind of status quo for me.  I did take it as a good sign that I did something "creative" and wrote a poem...if it can even be called that.   I've never done video chat....the thought makes me uncomfortable because of low self esteem.  But I think I can direct message you on here, if that's ok and if I need to?

Liz

Of course:)

Hi Aim...thank you for your response. I always enjoy reading your posts.  I'm very happy that something i posted would help you in any way, shape or form.

I kind of fell off the wagon a few days ago.  so now i'm picking myself back up.  i'm tired of struggling.  I WANT CHANGES FOR THE BETTER NOW.

When i talk to the very few people that i can about what kind of world i see us living in, in the very near future, i usually get 2 responses:

"oh yes me too, but that will never happen in our lifetime"

"oh no that's socialism"

I'm not so great with debate so i don't know how to respond to this. i usually get frustrated and get off the phone or change the subject.

 

 

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